everything was beautiful and nothing hurt

lo-fi

o hi~~~~~~~ haven’t touched my laptop in over a month…… typing on an actual keyboard that clicks feels extremely foreign……

i recently picked up a new hobby….. singing!!!!!!!!!!! and i’ve been using all the tricks i have up my sleeves to get my friends to sing with me. i must admit that i hog the mic too much and the only thing better than the act of singing itself is forcing my friends to sit through 3 hours of my screeching in an enclosed space……. wow nothing can be a better test of friendship than this….

i’ve also been trying to exercise but the only part i have been religiously exercising is my mouth, otherwise known as eating….. 

anyway this month has been a rather tame month (apart from partying 3x a week 2 weeks ago) i haven’t really partied since……….  because maybe i’m a bit too ++ size to fit into my size 0 dresses…… or maybe its cuz i started on a new drama as much as my physical body wants to party like a rockstar, my mind says no… the possibilities is limitless……………. 

Every now and then I remind myself..

“…So I made up my mind I was going to find someone who would love me unconditionally three hundred and sixty five days a year, I was still in elementary school at the time - fifth or sixth grade - but I made up my mind once and for all.”

“Wow,” I said. “Did the search pay off?”

“That’s the hard part,” said Midori. She watched the rising smoke for a while, thinking. “I guess I’ve been waiting so long I’m looking for perfection. That makes it tough.”

“Waiting for the perfect love?”

“No, even I know better than that. I’m looking for selfishness. Perfect selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortcake. And you stop everything you’re doing and run out and buy it for me. And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortcake out to me. And I say I don’t want it anymore and throw it out the window. That’s what I’m looking for.”

“I’m not sure that has anything to do with love,” I said with some amazement.

“It does,” she said. “You just don’t know it. There are time in a girl’s life when things like that are incredibly important.”

“Things like throwing strawberry shortcake out the window?”

“Exactly. And when I do it, I want the man to apologize to me. “Now I see, Midori. What a fool I have been! I should have known that you would lose your desire for strawberry shortcake. I have all the intelligence and sensitivity of a piece of donkey shit. To make it up to you, I’ll go out and buy you something else. What would you like? Chocolate Mousse? Cheesecake?”

“So then what?”

“So then I’d give him all the love he deserves for what he’s done.”

“Sounds crazy to me.”

“Well, to me, that’s what love is…”

I eat like a fat girl…

…..But I’m not. Hahahaha I feel so Gross by the amount of food I consume like how can I eat so much and none of the fats go to my boobs?!!!!!! Just kidding. Which brings me to another random point - is JK Just Kidding or JoKing??? Cuz I like to say “jkjk” (after I say something harsh with perhaps a small element of truth in it” and its abit Weird if its Just kidding jus kidding instead of joking joking… Hmm another mystery of life I may never figure out

Anyway life is too saturated with fats and sugar for me diz days I feel like I’ve no control over what I put inside my mouth and I’m never full…..

So bored while waiting for friend to pick me up (after a supersized meal at macs).. And sometimes I feel like I’m abusing tumblr instead of reblogging hipster and cool posts and quotes I talk about my feelings and whatever is on my mind (and perhaps whatever is in my tummy) or perhaps my tummy has a mind of its own or my tummy and mind possess telepathic abilities… Cool

I wish I had the ability to make myself shut up… Oh wait I can when I’m busy putting food in my mouth